I don’t know how to explain how he made me feel, but he gave me a new reason to want to try to make my life worthwhile. We didn’t even converse a lot when we first met, but there was an instant connection, it was magnetic. He told me he knew everything and all he did was look into my eyes.
: Currents of the shore:
It was a new day
The rain came
Washed away all my pain
It was the beginning of my life
When our eyes met
It gave me hope
A kind of inspiration
That one can only dream about
The way you looked at me
I thought something was wrong with me
But there wasn’t
Thoughts poured in my mind
Like the rain poured that night
Love at first sight?
I think not
But what was this feeling?
I came up with the conclusion:
There was a connection between us
It was all in our eyes
Curious thoughts surpassed my mind
Why did I question so much?
I couldn’t let myself slide
I had to deny myself
Deny my questions
My feelings
Everything
I was denying it all because I felt something
I woke up the next morning with nothing to lose
For I had no one
Nothing to hold on to
But myself
I wasn’t enough though
I wanted to make someone like you happy
Someone like you content
I had to experience another day when I awoke
Another day of seeing you
I wanted to understand what I saw in your eyes
As you watched the currents in the blue ocean
I wanted to talk to you
Discover your wants and experience a new day with you
What I felt was deep
But I convinced myself there was nothing
Days have gone by since that weekend
Trying to fight this feeling of curiosity
Trying to fight myself from him
But my feelings aren’t fading
As the seconds turn into minutes and the days turn into weeks
My thoughts have become clearer
I realize that I will never know
I lost against my own mind
I fought my own heart
I never told you how I truly felt
I was scared and I still am to this very day
The tragedy of it all is that I denied my heart
All I know now is that I am alone now
And for you
I don’t even know
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