I know the consequences, yet I take the chance. I have been getting some unusual dreams that are warning me to be careful of him, but I’m ignoring them because I think it’s just because I’m scared. I can feel myself changing everyday, I don’t know if it’s a good thing or bad thing though. I’m becoming so twisted, my heart feels nothing anymore, and he just doesn’t make me feel I want to even try to make things work. I feel like I have so much control though, but it’s out of anger and yet I love the feeling of not feeling. I honestly feel like I have nothing to lose, I wish I felt different, but I can’t help how I feel right now. I like testing my emotions now; I’m starting to appreciate this numbness. I told you I’m twisted.
: Changes Over Time:
It’s a flow from within
I can’t stop it
It’s a complete spin
So fast, yet so slow
I don’t know where to go
My minds making turns
I don’t know how
I don’t have control
I don’t care about the world
Yet I care so much
It’s complete chaos
I know its no good
And I know it can never be
For you will be the end of me
And it’s not a positive thing
I can only see negatively
I can only experience stress
Yet I get caught up with this spin
Which causes me to digress
It’s the opposite of what I want
It’s the horrible thing I don’t need
Yet somehow it’s like a drug
And I’m addicted and needy
I never thought I could feel this way
I never wanted it to end
But I actually am playing this endless game
With not one emotion spent
It’s like my heart is frozen
And it can never be thawed at all
Maybe I was burnt too many times
And I just need to talk
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