Page 90

My nightmares have started again and I no longer feel safe, I don’t know what’s happening to me, but whatever it is, I wish it would leave.

The way of the world
The ways of the Earth
The universe at a whole
The pieces are completing from underneath me
Or are they breaking completely?

The echoes surround me
I am listening to the sounds of the container I stand in
I am in when everyone else is out
For I see them
I have my doubts
I have created this falsity
It protects me
Leave me be

Such is life
For this life I have been given
The challenge
I have forgiven

Numerous times I count
I lay in the darkness of all night
I count the numerous spectacles in the sky
For I can not keep up
I am knocked down by these numbers
I am brought down by the sounds
The sound of thunder as the rain begins to pour over my soul

I begin to run
Not knowing where I am
Not caring where I fall
I have fallen
I am lying
Laying on this ground that you have made for me
This ground that has protected my skin from chafing

I hear the echoes
They are near
Chasing me down
Making me weak
Yet I am here
I am not devoured by these memories
The memories of this hatred
I am still recovering
And you didn’t help me