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January 2005

I thought I was one without feeling, concern, heart, and all that could cause hurt to me, but apparently, I am melting. I am left scared, concerned, and hazed with memories. Regardless, I still feel I have some control, I guess I am testing it out as twisted as that sounds. The truth of the matter is that I don’t know this time, I can’t predict, because for the first time I actually feel good. I don’t know what to write and in a way I don’t feel like even typing today. He’s coming over soon and I can’t wait to see him.