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I surrender to the heavens above. I pray to all the Gods and Lords that are existent in this world and the worlds that I may not know of. I ask to whomever may be reading this, to whoever can help me, I ask for people to just let me be if there intentions are solely based on jealousy and conspiracy towards me. I feel as though my emotions are like a light switch because sometimes I can be so on top of things and then, BAM, the pain hits out of nowhere. I slept horrible last night, I woke up shaking at three in the morning and I couldn’t go back to sleep because of the fear of the images taking over my mind again. I definitely can’t wait to wake up tomorrow morning and making things different from the way things are going now. See how much better I am getting? At least I want to wake up in the morning now.

: The Reverse:
: Surrender:

Misery completes me
A whole I am not
A broken piece from the start
For Misery has torn me apart

Dispersing like rainfall
Natural is the weather
Drowning me
Soaking me in pain
Therefore I am drenched

My eyelids
Heavier and Heavier
Closing tightly
Another day about to expire
My story will never end

No longer trembling
The feelings of warmth have overtaken me
Things such as this have blinded me

Before I sleep
Confusion is seeping all over me
Distorting my peace
And ruining everything

I give up
I surrender
I just pray that I wake
Because I’m slipping away

The morning abides me
My body awakes
As I start a new day