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I have been struck by lightening and the currents have overtaken my mind, body, and soul. I have confessed to the people who have taken care of me their entire lives, I told my parents today about my secret. I don’t really want to write about it for very long because they ended up blaming me and telling me how they have always told me to never to trust men and I shouldn’t of put myself in that situation. I was so angry because it took me so long to actually get it out of my head that it wasn’t my fault in the first place and now they are making things worse. I know they love me, I didn’t mean to make them cry, but they have to understand that I didn’t ask for this. I just tried to be a good person and give him a chance for at least a friendship and the entire situation turned on me in just one night. I’ve learned my lesson, but just because this happened to me, it doesn’t make me irresponsible, why can’t they see that?

: The Word Is Out:
: My Confession:

My eyes were cut
I do not know how
For I do not remember
I think I forgot how

So much confusion
So much pain
For my hands are bleeding
And my brain cannot retain

There are too many things wrong
It’s not my imagination
For I think I lost even that
I believe I’m hallucinating

I reach out for your hand
The only hand I feel I need
But you seem so far away
For when I reach for it
I’m too late

You went away
You left me in pain
With all my cuts and bruises
You left me in pieces
How can you think I can choose this?
You think I asked for this?
Is this the freedom I thought I deserved?
I think your thoughts are absurd

My mind is running in circles
It’s tired, worried, and confused
Why can’t you just support me?
Instead of causing me to be more bruised



Heal me from this disaster
Rejuvenate my mind
Love me fully
Is it too hard for you to be understanding and kind?

I’m sorry for all that’s happened
I’m sorry for all this pain
But help my eyes to see
The love I have to gain
For I know that it’s existent
But apart of me is scared
And I can’t help how I feel
Because I’ve had this heartache to bare

I’m only one person
I’m only one soul
I have so much to live for
I have so many goals
Don’t blame me for what’s happened
Just accept me for what I am now
Because things could be far more worse
If I had let things turn for the worst
Because don’t think it almost didn’t happen
Because it almost did
But I believed in myself
And I didn’t allow myself to slip

I’m sick of shedding tears
I’m tired of all my pain
Please put a stop to your tormenting words
And be the support I need to gain

I only want to progress in life
So have a little faith
I’m telling you because I care
With an emotion that is taint

I feel as though my emotions are vanishing
Every passing day
And this is why it’s important to tell you
Because this is what’s causing my mind to stray

I can only pray that you will understand
And the rest is up to you
So be the help that I need
And don’t yell at me