Page 54-Injustice: Unjust act

It’s phenomenal how time works. There’s this guy in one of my classes and he’s probably one of the nicest guys I’ve ever met, but I’m terrified to give him a lot of my time. He had asked me to meet him before I went home the other day and he had given me my favorite flower. I was so shocked and still am, I don’t even remember if I had said thank you. I know it’s mean, but I have to tell him I’m not interested although I sort of am because I don’t think he’ll be able to accept the things that have become apart of who I am now. I feel so much agony, but I know he deserves someone without so much baggage. After I cam home today, I started to free write about all my feelings of turmoil.

: Agony:

I peeled off my skin
Every bit of it
For you
So you could see within

I changed how I dressed
Every bit of it
For you
Just so we wouldn’t argue

I thought you loved me
But you didn’t
Or else things wouldn’t be how they are now

All my emotions are coming out
I can’t contain myself
This is how you have made me feel:

Unsatisfied
Incomplete
I’m missing pieces
I feel unreal

My state of confusion
Even disbelief
A state of misery
Which has caused my lack of sleep

I’m in shock
No one is here
I am living each day
Wondering if you’re sorry

I try so hard not to think about you
Trying not to be angry
But I can’t help the way I feel




You hurt me
More ways than one
I’m left alone at night
Pondering
Trying to move on
Fighting with my mind

My wants
My needs
I’m incomplete

I’m still in a state of disbelief
For I am innocent