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February 2005

Something happened. I started crying without stopping. There’s nothing to clog my eyes from tearing. My heart hurts and I can’t help but to feel used and helpless all because of what he had said, what I hear, and how he made me feel. I don’t even know how to start this entry, but bottom line is that he completely degraded me publicly.

Captivated and forlorn with desire
Spite and regret
Your actions have caused a memory of regret
Intoxicated with fear
I’ve been taken apart
Piece by piece

I can’t believe that this is destined for me, but then again I knew this was coming, I felt it through my veins, I hear it through the walls, and I hear him. I feel so sad and I can’t even write anymore.