I knew he wasn’t perfect from the beginning, but I didn’t think that anyone would treat me this bad after knowing what I had gone through. I’m not trying to use my past as an excuse to have someone adore me, but is it too much trouble to treat me like a human being? He does things without even thinking twice about my morals and my feelings. I’m so unhappy and I know in my heart that this is just a waste of time now. It’s so weird because I actually care about him still and I have even told him that numerous times, but he still drugs himself in front of me. Does he have no shame? Apparently not.
: Breathing:
Filled with discontent
Green with dread
Misunderstanding
No compassion
For these are the problems of this world
Worldly
Green with envy
Sunk right in
No beginning to see
Pulled right in internally
Beyond spirituality
Philosophically intriguing
Beneath me
I am needing
Understanding is what I’m feeling
For why have I stopped breathing?
Each breath
Each being
For I can not believe it
I cannot see it
Red with rage
The times you forgave
Pacified your temper
For I had my eye on another
And this is what was said:
You cannot change
For I cannot make you
I beg of you to care
I lay here in despair
Putting me in situations
Watching you near me
Drugging yourself with envy
Killing yourself
Watching you dissembling
Your head on my chest
My heart beating fast
Waking up in the morning
Wanting it to last
For you are not there
You left me again
I left you three times
Now it’s over again
Philosophically intriguing
Beneath me
I am needing
Understanding is what I’m feeling
For I’m in the process of spiritual healing
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