Chapter One

A life no different from yours and mine, a life that has lost hope, yet regaining what has been lost throughout the time that has been given. I have experienced something that many people can relate to. My friends have confided in me, they have expressed their pain, their anguish that they are trying to overcome each and every day. This book has intertwined their experiences and mine into this emotional story of truth. This is not only a story, this is life, a transition of someone’s life that has been tormented by a past of deceit, which has been written in a story format by using a poetical device.


I had just ended a relationship with someone who lied to me continuously; I don’t really know what to do because I still have feelings for him. I feel so confused and worthless because of how he has made me feel. I just want someone to be honest, someone to love me for who I am and not try to change me. It’s funny what life throws at you sometimes and then again, it’s not that funny since I’m in tears almost every day. The ironic part about it all is that I met someone; I actually have an opportunity to start all over with someone different. It seems that someone always comes along right after heartbreak. I never liked the term rebound, but it seems that’s all it was as I look back on it. This so called ‘rebound’ ended up being the cause of so much more, he was the cause of all my sleepless nights, the cause of my horrid images in my mind, he is the cause of why my poetry is so morbid. For these are the poems from March 2003 to February 2005.