Page 52-Flashbacks: Interjection of earlier events into a later chronological sequence

My sleepless nights are occurring once again. I feel as though the images aren’t only when I close my eyes because I feel they exist even when my eyes are open now. I’m starting to remember what happened to me more clearly now and I’m starting to feel depressed again. I don’t want medication, but I think I need some so I can sleep. Nyquil is the safest thing for me besides my dead bolt and my mace beside my bed. : Distractions: Let me breathe Allow me not to see him when I’m asleep For the memories are not good They instill fear in me Which causes me painful agony Why don’t you just go away? Every time I close my eyes My mind still manages to stray I still can’t shut you out I just keep asking myself over again why? Why? Why Me? Why can’t I just have the power to fast forward time? I awaken to a new day But I still remember Nothing has changed I still recall what happened Nothing was erased The weather I still can’t believe The glow of the sun has no effect on me Everything just seems gloomy Inside and out So much anger inside me that I can’t seem to get out I finally get up I try to get myself prepared For I have to make it through the day And not feel so helpless and scared My eyes are opened wide A mirrored image is seen It’s a shattered figure Then I look deep I breathe And then I realize That shattered figure is me